Im thinkin about quitting xanga...its boring now....the xanga craze is finally over...

...The bad things in life open your eyes to the good things you never saw before...

Life hasnt been all to bad. Last weekend I went on a church retreat. It was so amazing. I had gone on it the summer before my sophomore year. And now I worked on it. And it was so awesome. I had so much fun. But the only bad thing. A weekend with out a cell phone, watch, computer, tv, anything and everything you can imagine, but the focus was completly on Christ. It was so awesome! I had alot of fun.

...Life doesnt hurt until you think about how much you've changed, who you've lost along the way and how much of it was your fault...

This week I didnt do to much. School, it was ok I guess. Just school. I didnt work all week either, so it was nice to finally get a break from that. And I have caught up alot on my studies. Good news! lol. Tommy and I were alot nicer to eachother this week, until yesturday. (Long story!). Kyle and I are doin great. He's a sweet heart. And I have become a better Christian. Yay!

...Life is like photography...you use the negative to develop...

Kyle, wow. He has helped me through a whole lot. And I really admire that. I never would have expected him to put up with so much...and not do anything but just listen. And same with all of my other friends. Though some did alot more than listen...that shouldnt have been done...oh well...

...You have no Idea how much you've changed me...You gave me reasons to smile...thoughts to think...and kisses to dream about....but most of all you gave me memories to never forget....

                the  best feeling
                      in  the  world  is
                      to  be  a  million`
                      miles away     &
                      still  be   able  to
                      picture his eyes

Well Me and Kyle are great! School is going good, Work isnt too bad. And life is just perfect! Nothin really too new. Im grounded for a grade I got in Algebra 2. But I can still do stuff, so it doesnt really feel like im grounded. lol. Umm. I dont talk to Tommy anymore, which has made life so much better. It will be one month for me and Kyle tomorrow. And yeah alot of things have happend!

its strange how you always make me smile..

So this is what happend...Tommy and I had been fighting everyday. So finally I said it would be best to cut all the ties between us. And as soon as that was said. He starts liking Meagan....Yeah...real shady huh? Then I find out that half the time he was wroking to get me back...he had liked Maggie...those are 2 of my best friends....and he goes after him. I think its super funny. I don't really care at all anymore. I really dont. I dont have any respect for him, and I hate him. lol. SoOo this paragraph is that last that will ever be said about him! Im completly over him!

unless u  can  see  inside  my heart
then theres  no  possible  way you
could  know  how i  feel  about  him

 

Kyle and I are doing great! He's the sweetest thing ever. Im so happy I met him, and stopped being stuck on Tommy. I would have passed up a great chance with someone really special. He makes me laugh when Im in the worst moods. And he really makes me happy. So many people have tried to bring us down...but it doesnt work at all! Im really happy, for once. I have nothing to complain about.

 

even though a kiss is very good, there's a moment
right  before  you  do  that's     ------»    even better.

 

So, Yesturday was Sammy Jo's 16th B-day. Happy Birthday Baby! The big One Six!

 

six billion people in this world; six billion souls;
and sometimes, all you need is one. < 3

 

I just wanted to say thanks to all my friends. I love yall! I wouldnt have been able to get through everything with out yall! your the best!

 

&& when I'm around you...nothing else matters

 

Im gonna go. Bells gonna ring!

 

thank God for what you have,
       * trust God for what you need.

Currently Listening Back in Black By AC/DC, DC see related

It's the way
That he makes you feel
It's the way
That he kisses you
It's the way
That he makes you fall in love
--Sugarcult

Wow its been a while since I have updated. Um...Things have been goin ok. Work sucks, school, im out right now, but it still sucks, me and tommy, still arent together. And life over all....ehh.  But christmas break I guess is goin good. I met this guy a little bit a go and things with him are goin good he's a sweet heart.

Any guy can love a thousand girls.
but only a real guy can love one girl in a thousand ways.

Ok. So for Christmas I went to Texas! To seee family. It was super nice. It didnt feel like Christmas at all. It was 75, clear skys and sunny. I had fun. I also got a lot of presents. (And i still have a whole bunch more to open from my dad and step mom and both of their families.) I got A super nice car stereo and speakers. A green Carhart jacket. 2 pair of hollister jeans, and a shirt. A pair of AE jeans and 3 hoodies. 1 pair of jeans from alloy, and a bunch of shirts and sweaters. Cow girl boots, money, jewlery, hollister perfume, a john deere shirt, and a dooney and bourke purse.  I got a bunch of stuff. And I am more than happy. I went to Church on Christmas eve, to the church that my parents got married in. It was so pretty, but it was kinda weird. Since my parents havent been together since i was like 2. And I was at the church they got married in. But it was a really nice church and service. 

I am glad we have another week out. Im not lookin forward to goin back to school. I have really started to get senior-itus.  I hate everything about school, except for sports and friends. lol. Oh well. So yeah. The majority of the rest of break will probably be spent...working. Oh well. I really need the money. Im kinda thinkin about looking for another job. Because Lonestar doesnt pay hardly anything. Im happy I have a job. But it pays so bad. God! lol. So this guy [kyle] is from marion, and hes super sweet, and is awesome. Im glad I met him. And in the timing that I did. Yeah most say its to soon for me to have started liking and talking to a guy...right after tommy. But I dunno, its different. I guess. I dunno. I didnt plan on meeting anyone, it just sorta happend. And like everyone says, everything happens for a reason. So I just went with the flow, and let everything fall into place. So yeah... Well I guess Im gonna go. I need to start packing to go home. I'll be back in carbondale tomorrow! Yes!

i think, god will give you someone, much better
than me, trust me your eyes will be ok it will be alright
you'll be just fine